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I Hate My Computer. [Feb. 27th, 2005|02:06 pm]
[mood |argh!]

I'm sure this is very boring for you all, but I need to rant about my computer some more.

I finally figured out what I was doing wrong about the memory. I thought I didn't have any extra slots to upgrade and would have to remove one of the 128MB sticks and replace it with a 256MB. But a 256 wouldn't fit in the same slot as a 128 as I soon realized. And I discovered I did have an extra slot, so I just got another 128 bringing the total to 368. So yay, extra memory. Though it doesn't seem to be making much of a difference. I thought TS2 was gonna work, but it just froze up little further along while loading. I think I also need a new video card. Great.

In addition to my game not working, I also encountered some problems connecting to the internet yesterday (and I'm still not sure they're resolved; I'm hoping me being on right now isn't a temporary fluke). I apparently had/have some spyware on my computer, and while I'm always connected on a LAN, my browsers weren't recognizing the DNS, so I couldn't connect to any sites. I ran Ad-aware last night, but even after that I couldn't get anywhere. I don't know why it's working now. Also, my computer froze up when I booted up today, and I got an message saying my system recovered from a serious error, so I sent an error report, and it said my problem was caused by a driver. Which means jack shit to me. I didn't install any new drivers to my knowledge. Argh. I think my computer is cursed.
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Fuck to the Trillionth Power! [Feb. 26th, 2005|12:57 am]
[mood |pissed]

Okay. I return the RAM I bought since it's the wrong kind and all. I decide to shop around for the best price since they didn't have the 256 MB for notebooks on sale. I also decide that since my ill-gotten copy of The Sims 2 is on the fritz, I might as well buy a legit copy. I get my RAM and my game and head off to the apartment. When I try to install the RAM, which I'm so sure is the right kind this time, I realize it won't fit in the slot right because the notch on the stick didn't match up with the notch on my computer. Ok, fine. I'll return it tomorrow, and maybe seek the advice of someone who actually knows what the fuck they're doing before making any further RAM purchases. I go ahead and try to install TS2, and it installs perfectly. Later tonight, I decide to pick up where I left off in my game (I still had all the families saved on my harddrive). Everything is going great...I manage to fullfill some big aspirations for my Sims, including getting the kids into private school rather effortlessly. I prepare to send all of my Sims off to bed so I can save the game and create a new family when...MY FUCKING COMPUTER RESTARTS. Blue Screen of Death. Something about a memory dump. Once again, TS2 won't load, and I'm afraid to find out what happens when I try to reinstall. So I spent $42 dollars for nothing, and you can't return software. I'm guessing/hoping it's a memory problem, since TS2 requires 256 MB and I have 240 MB. Now I just have to figure out what kind of RAM I'm supposed to get and hopefully it won't keep crashing. In the meantime, I'm pretty pissed.
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Buffy Icon-O-Rama [Jan. 17th, 2005|12:14 am]
[mood |bored]

6 behind the cut )
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My Site' Back Up [Oct. 16th, 2004|08:51 pm]
Yep. Blogger is a pain in the ass, but I finally got my template like I wanted it. I removed all of the content and plan on keeping it just a blog.
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Design Input? [Sep. 30th, 2004|05:50 pm]
I was working on a new design for my (currently defunct) weblog, and I came up with something I really like concept-wise...but since my design skills are limited, I'd like some input on it.

It's a pretty big image, so I'm cutting it )

A couple of things:
1. It's about 700 pixels wide, so it will fit snugly into 800 X 600 resolution.
2. I cropped it, so it may look more cluttered than it actually will on your browser.
3. I saved it as a GIF, so the actual photo is better quality.
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Web Log [Sep. 17th, 2004|10:58 pm]
[mood |bored]

I'm terribly bored, thus this post was born. Things that have piqued my interest lately:

W.i.t.c.h. - A book series for pre-teens by Disney, though the story doesn't really interest me. The illustration is what caught my eye. Very cute. Oh, it's obviously a knock-off of Buffy: a red-headed witch named Will & a stuck-up Cornelia? Sounds familiar.

Fred Flare - Cute tops and accessories. Must have: Alice All Over tee (incredibly awesome, but sold out. Not that it matters since I have no money).

Ghost Study - I've been perusing the galleries (ghostly and paranormal photos), surprisingly without scaring myself shitless.
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The Dr. Phil Test [Sep. 9th, 2004|10:09 pm]
[mood |bored]

Your total score is 38

Interpretation of Results
Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

Sounds like me. Take it yourself.
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Bwah! [Sep. 8th, 2004|09:44 pm]
[mood |easily amused]

This is the funniest thing I've seen in a long time.
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BoredBoredBored [Aug. 27th, 2004|04:54 pm]
[mood |um, bored?]

Sigh. There is nothing to do. Becky is away camping, and all of my other friends don't exist. I have no money to spend frivolously, and I've spent several hours collaging my notebook for school. I also spent a few hours on it last night, which makes it even more sad that it's still pretty sparse. My idea was to cut out words from magazines and arrange them into my favorite lyrics. It's a lot harder than it seems. So far all I have is: "with our eyes to the ground [Nikka Costa, Corners of My Mind];" "sometimes my mind don't shake and shift [Fiona Apple, Fast as You Can];" "the sun above your shoulders, [Rufus Wainwright, Greek Song];" "my heart and mind playing a tug of war [Nikka, Tug of War];" "I feel the west in you [Tori Amos, Northern Lad];" and "the void behind my face [Weezer, The World Has Turned and Left Me Here]." I'm trying my damndest not to have to cut out the letters individually, but it's hard to find the words I need. I suppose I could be spending this time buying supplies for school or working on the 12 drawings I have to turn in on Monday, but where's the fun in that?

Also, I found some knock-off Uggz boots that appear to be faux suede, but I can't be spending my money on stuff I don't need. In addition to school stuff, I have a ticket that needs to be paid (failure to stop at a railroad crossing, blah).
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Friends Only [Aug. 24th, 2004|04:58 pm]


Leave a comment & I'll add you.
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For Clarification [Aug. 24th, 2004|04:16 pm]
[mood |confuzzled]

Here's a screenshot of that ugiygi program I was talking about before )

Also, the other day when Internet Explorer froze up, I pressed CRTL+ALT+DEL and the box came up about, oh, twenty times. Very strange. It's occured to me that I should probably stop using IE, but old habits die hard, I guess.
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Stupid Computer Problem [Aug. 16th, 2004|10:48 pm]
[mood |computer illiterate]

Okay, what is ugiygi.exe? It keeps starting up every time I boot up my computer. I have no idea what it is, and it just started doing that.

Also, what the heck am I supposed to do about the 10 or so Klez worms on my computer that could not be quarantined by my anti-virus (I ended up downloading AVG, the free one). Cause they suck.
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School, school, school [Aug. 12th, 2004|10:14 pm]
I just checked the status of my application to GC&SU online (ahh, the wonders of tehnology). They haven't received my transcripts yet, which I really wasn't expecting. Also, they seem to think I went to West Central Technical College instead of West GA, so I had to send off an e-mail about that. I would hate for my application process to be deterred because they didn't receive transcripts from a college I never attended.

In other news, I went up to my current school Tuesday to see about financial aid, and they still haven't received (word of the day!) my FAFSA. So I can't get financial aid from the school until that happens. Also, there is no guarantee that I'll be able to receive (I told you) any aid by the fee payment deadline. I seriously should have thought about this the second I started looking into other colleges. It makes perfect sense to continue here for another semester until I can get into GC&SU, so I don't know why I didn't think of it sooner.
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Things I Did Today [Aug. 8th, 2004|10:21 pm]
[mood |tired]

1. Registered for two classes at my old/current school. I found out that I don't have to be enrolled full time to be eligible for the HOPE. I don't know where I got that from. But I will be eligible to get it again at the end of this semester. My two classes are on Monday & Wednesday mornings: Painting Studio at 9:00 to 10:15, Color Theory at 10:30 to 11:45. Same room, same teacher. I'll be finished with class by noon, and I'll have 5 days with no classes at all, which should leave me plenty of time to work. Big sigh of relief.

2. Filled out my application to GC&SU (including a check for the application fee), and I printed out transcript request forms from my current school and West Georgia, all to be mailed out tomorrow. Hopefully, I can get this stuff done soon enough to ensure myself both admission to the college and an apartment. I already have an application for the apartment, so I'll be ready to send it out when I get my letter of acceptance. Which will happen, because why wouldn't it?

3. Watched most of The 4400 marathon, including the finale, only to be taken in by an ending that didn't answer everything. I'm assuming they're going to stretch it out into a 22 episode series. Bah.

4. Went thrift shopping and scored two shirts that looked brand new, a skirt, and some curtains. I'm really supposed to be watching my money, but for some reason lately, I feel the need to spend. Okay, so everything I buy is used or on sale or clearance, but I currently have no source of income. I'm supposed to baby-sit tomorrow, but the past few times she's cancelled on me.
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Ew. [Aug. 3rd, 2004|09:51 pm]
[mood |ahhhhhhhhhh!!!]

When I was about nine or so, I spent the night with a friend who lived down the street from me. I use the term "friend" loosely, since she actually treated me pretty badly. The events of that night is just one example of how she messed with me. At this age, I was very easily frightened. Anything the least bit weird or spooky had a traumatizing effect on me. I was terrifed of the dark and often called my mom into my room during the middle of the night, despite the fact that I had a lamp on. The night that I spent with my friend, she decided to watch Poltergeist. Now, this is a pretty damn scary movie. I begged her to change the channel, but she wanted to watch it and didn't care if I was scared. So I was pretty spooked until the movie got to the following part; at that point, I was petrified.

From filmsite.org:
"While everyone is sleeping in the downstairs living room, Marty searches in the refrigerator for something to eat. A raw piece of beef steak that he removes and sets down slowly inches its way across the kitchen counter. The chicken drumstick he has been chewing drops from his mouth to the floor - it is swarming with maggots. As he washes his mouth out in the bathroom, he has a morbid, hallucinatory experience. He watches his face deteriorate in the haunted mirror - in horror, he claws at his face and peels back the rotting flesh with his fingers, pulling off gobs of skin down to the bone...After a sudden flash of light, his face is restored back to normal."

From this point on, my fears only worsened. I was afraid to watch anything on television for fear that something scary would come on. I developed an irrational fear of maggots (it didn't help when my "friend" told me stories of maggots eating people's internal organs). I was even scared by an episode of Cheers wherein Sam had a dream that Rebecca pulled her face off to reveal a monster (or something). That in itself wasn't scary, but it reminded me of Poltergeist.

Anyway, I don't know why I'm telling this story. I saw something about Poltergeist on I Love the 80's, and I got curious about what scared me. Over the years, I couldn't remember anything specific.

Sweet dreams.
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Visit to GC&SU [Jul. 31st, 2004|08:31 pm]
[mood |happy]

Well, I did the tour at Georgia College & State University today, and I am pretty much sold on going there. The campus was nice and compact. The school is old, but many of the buildings are undergoing reconstruction (or already have been). It still maintains the charm of an old town, though. There is a little downtown area a block from the campus that has several restaurants and shops. There is also a lot of development a couple of miles away, where you'll find grocery stores, shopping, more restaurants, etc. The dorms are nice, and have shared bathrooms between two rooms (four people to a bathroom), instead of the communal bathrooms that UWG has. However, anyone who lives in the residence halls has to buy a meal plan, the cheapest of which is over $1000. I figured it would be nearly $2500 cheaper a year to stay at the "apartments." Basically, they are 2 to 4 bedroom apartments with a separate bathroom adjacent to the bedrooms, a kitchenette, laundry facilities, cable, phone, and internet. They are only available to GC&SU students and the price is included in tuition, rather than having a monthly rent. They're a mile from the campus, but a shuttle runs continuously during the day that takes you to the campus. Remember how I said I wanted to share a room and all that crap? Well, fuck that noise. I don't like sharing, I don't know what I was thinking. Anyway, the drawbacks are it's a bit more expensive than UWG, though since the living arrangements are better, I don't see that as a big porblem. And, of course, I would have to wait until Spring to enroll. I'm not sure how the apartment situation would go, since they have yearly contracts that probably begin in fall. Oh, I would be able to live there throughout the summer if I wanted, and if I renew my contract, I'll still have the same room. So far, the only things West Georgia has going for it are: it's cheaper, I *may* be able to get a room this semester, and um, that's it. Is it bad that my main concern isn't my education? Oh well, I'm an art major, I'm going to starve anyway.

Also, I subscribed to match.com for the month. My mom was going to give me some money for taking her places, but I told her to get me a subscription instead. So I've e-mailed two guys so far, we'll see what happens.
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More College Info [Jul. 25th, 2004|10:50 pm]
[mood |excited!!!]

I've been looking more into GCSU and discovered that 1.) it's closer to my house than I originally thought and 2.) the suites are pretty similar to dorms. I will still have a roommate & a shared bathroom, so I'll get all the discomfort I crave! Also, I was looking at the FAQ for housing, and it said, "New students will be assigned on a first-come, first-served basis." I don't know if that applies to new transfers as well, but I'm going to e-mail someone and find out. There are three similar residence halls that each have a bunkable twin bed with an 80" mattress (I'm guessing that's extra long), a desk with chair, a book shelf, a lockable closet (hell.yeah. Try stealing my dishwashing liquid now, bitch!), basic cable, and high speed internet. Tomorrow I'm going to call about a tour, so hopefully I'll be able to see the campus soon. I also checked it out on Campus Dirt, and it got pretty good ratings from students, especially the campus itself. I feel so good about this. I'm going to have to put school off for another semester, but until then I can keep baby-sitting. I need to save up more money anyhow.
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Hmm... [Jul. 25th, 2004|12:50 am]
[mood |hopeful]

I may have found a better option for college. It's a liberal arts school that's about the same distance from my house as West Georgia (just southeast instead of northwest). The only problem is that upperclassmen are encouraged to stay in the apartments, and the freshman get first priority in the (reasonably priced) suites.

There's another liberal arts college in Georgia, but it's further south than I'd like to live. It has traditional dorms, though, including one specifically for transfer students at a low price. The tuition is low as well.
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match.com Personality Test [Jul. 24th, 2004|01:25 am]
I mostly did this out of boredom, but it turned out to be spot on:

You're a hidden flower
You bring real passion to life. You're a woman of great integrity who'll stand up and fight for causes she believes in. You have a vision for the future and always are searching to find love and a sense of "balance" in your life. You refuse to settle long-term for a boring job or doing something just because it's expected of you. Because you're independent and a little shy, you only let a few people get especially close. But you also have a very romantic side hidden away and are ready to experience a genuine "spark" with someone.

Quirks men notice
Like all women, you have your strengths as well as your quirks and shortcomings.
Ultimately, you want to find someone who will love and accept you "warts and all." Because you're a private person, it's especially important that you find a partner who understands.
--On most days, you need to get away from other people (including your loved ones) and have quiet time alone to rest and recharge your emotional and social batteries.
--At times you can become so focused on ideas, plans for the future, or a new project that you lose track of the day to day details of life (like doing laundry, balancing your checkbook, or even eating).

You may notice
--You need quiet time to yourself to read, think, or write on most days.
--You'll enjoy one-on-one time with someone, but also need some alone time to think and recharge.
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Sucky, Sucky Day [Jul. 23rd, 2004|10:01 pm]
[mood |bummed]

Today was my advisement appointment. I had to drive 2 hours to get to the school. When I got there, I realized I didn't know where the art department was. I finally found it after doing a lot of walking in the 98 degree weather. I was 10 minutes late for my appointment (which was at 11:00), but as it turned out, the professor was late anyhow. That did not go as planned. My professor at my last school told me to talk to this guy about transfer equivalents since some classes didn't transfer the same though they had the same content. Because of this, I would have to basically retake three classes under a different course name. Well, the art dept. head did not seem to think that my other classes counted. Apparently, taking a class wherein you do ceramics for a whole semester doesn't count as Ceramics I. And doing a semester of figure drawing isn't the same as Life Drawing. So I mentioned that my other professor told me those classes should be the same, the art dept, head says, "Mr. So-and-so didn't teach life drawing here," meaning his opinion on the course work wasn't relevant. So I felt like a big idiot for even bringing his name up. So now I have to retake three classes, and most of the classes were filled, so I ended up having to take some stupid German film class and a freaking Friday class. Friday! What the fuck is that? I could probably drop that one, though. But I doubt I'm even going to be able to go, because I'm number 77 on the waiting list for a room, and unless all the people ahead of me don't want a room, I'm outta luck. I talked to the residence life person, and she said I was automatically put on the waiting list because I'm both a transfer student and I got readmitted. Only freshman are guaranteed rooms. I'll have to wait until the first week of classes to find out if I'll get a room.

I was thinking if I didn't get a room this semester that I won't even bother going there at all. I don't want to get put on a waiting list every semester, and the whole school's been giving me the runaround. I have to twist arms to get any information from anybody. But I really don't have another option for schooling, unless I go somewhere far off, which I don't want to do. Georgia State is the next closest, but I don't want to go there because 1. It costs nearly $3000 more a semester (though hopefully I'll get my scholarship back after this semester, and it will pay for everything except books), 2. It's right in the middle of downtown Atlanta, and I've only lived in suburban or rural areas, and 3. As stupid as it sounds, I want the real dorm experience, and they don't have that. Their housing is more like apartments, and I feel like I need the experience of being cramped into a room with a total stranger and being forced to make the best of it. It's a challenge, and since I didn't do too well the last time I went away to school, I need to prove to myself that I can do it.
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